I was a free bird on April 10th, 2018. Because I completed one of the biggest tasks in the Masters curriculum. I was filled with dreams, energetic and felt pretty healthy. I was physically fit, energetic, ready to complete my remaining Masters tasks. Then suddenly I started sneezing badly, it felt like normal cold. I used to sneeze for 15 to 20 times a day. I ignored it for 2 weeks (long time I know !!). I consulted many doctors, finally I got to know that I am allergic to wheat and pollen. Doctors prescribed me medicines. The sneezes reduced to 5 to 6 times a day. It continued till September. Wait wait wait !!

From august 2018, itself I started having headaches. They were different. The pain was on the left side. I started getting headaches every time I go out, every time I study, every time I was tired. In my brain, it felt like some liquid is flowing and coming back to its original position every time I move. When I used to sit and stand the pain would fester. I ignored … I ignored… I ignored… I decided that they are tension headaches, stress headaches, depression headaches… I used to console myself that I got it just because I am not healthy. I blamed my mood swings, food habits, life, masters, parents, hair, tiredness what not !! I felt the healthiest sometimes. I used to college to go to college to study, but then comeback with tiredness, guilt, lack of interest, motivation and obviously headaches.

Then came October 30 !! I had my exam on Oct 30. I had headaches before 30 but ignored them as usual. I passed. I felt the best ! Nov 1 to 10th I was super fit and fine, No headaches. Decided that exam was the main cause of headaches ! Nov 12th again started getting headaches. This time more severe, more painful, more dreadful. I became physically weak. I was planning to go to doctor if the headache sustains. Yes! it happened. But in a normal way.

Nov 26th night as I was watching a movie, I started feeling a sharp pain in my eyes. It felt like the eyes are getting pulled inside my brain. The pain increased, next day. I used to cry during nights with that pain. I visited emergency ward and house doctor, they both asked me to go emergency neuro hospital if the pain sustains. Nov 28th night, I was in peaks. I felt like I will die with the pain. I cried like hell in front of my partner. I deeply felt something is wrong. I woke up every 3 hours in the night due to excruciating pain. I woke up at 6 o’ clock on 29th November. I vomited twice, felt like I was on an edge of getting unconscious. I called my friend who owns a car, he picked me up and three of us, we went to emergency ward of the city. They admitted me, performed checkups for 2-hour, asked me all the weird questions ( about whether I had any disease, migraines, pregnancy, stress) had an CT – SCAN. And then the doctors informed me that I have chronic bleeding on the left side of my brain!! I was not allowed to get down from the bed after it was confirmed that that the bleeding was heavy. I can see the fear in the eyes of doctor, she was panicking, anxious and afraid to inform me. She scolded my partner about my dreadful situation and why I was not brought to the hospital 2-3 days before. I was immediately shifted to a bigger hospital, 40 mins away. I was sent in an ambulance. The journey in the ambulance was scary. I was relieved by the pain because they gave me painkillers continuously. My heart beats were raising, I just wanted to speak to my parents. It was first time in my life I travelled in an ambulance. I felt these are my last hours. I wanted to meet my parents. But by Sai Baba’s grace everything went well… I was operated on 30th November, 2018 around 4 o’ clock to 5.30. I came out of the operation theatre with 2 pipes coming out of my head and a plastic bag filled with blood. I felt the most relieved from the pain but started having PSTD. I got to know after 4 days that I was diagnosed with Subdural Hematoma with an arachnoid cyst. I had a midline shift of the brain so post operation pains. It took me 8 months to settle and be back to normal.